April 21, 2012
Hi this is Wadad, Sami’s daughter. My Dad started his second Chemo treatment and at this stage he will be receiving his second BMT within a month. PTL! I would like to share with you one thing that God has taught me through this journey.
It’s not easy with my Dad having cancer. Even though I fully trust God, it’s hard to let go of my Dad and fully submit him to God. With everything happening, sometimes I wonder why God doesn’t just hurry up! I understand that it’s God’s plan but I still find myself questioning Him sometimes. The devil knows this and comes when I’m weak or when I’m trying to be strong. He puts thoughts in my mind that make me doubt God, His plan and my faith at times. When I’m my weakest, is when I look at all the worldly facts of how things could go wrong. It reminds me of Peter when he walked on water. Reality is he cannot walk on water and when he began to walk his faith grew, but then weakened when he looked at his worldly surrounding. When we grow in faith, Satan doesn’t like it. He brings more waves into our lives and you look at the waves and begin to question and doubt God. “Immediately Jesus reached out His hand and caught him. ‘You of little faith,’ he said, ‘why did you doubt?’ ” (Matthew 14:31). We tend to forget God is in control and that He is always there beside us and that His timing is perfect and with Him anything is possible. That’s how by faith I rest assured that God’s plan is what is best and that He is taking very good care of my Dad.
With Love,
Wadad
Sami Lahoud 
We are standing with you and your dad & family, Wadad. I really understand your feelings and know while in this imperfect world, we won’t understand everything, but one day, He promises us that we will.
love
Samar
Wadad,
Yes I agree, the devil loves to show his face when we are at our weekest; continue to keep your hands in Our Father’s & he will keep you strong my friend 🙂 Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with us; you, your family, & your father remain in my prayers.
Regards,
Amber Simone Pennington
Thank you for sharing, and please tell your Dad high for me with a nice big hug…
Psalms 25:12-14 “Whoever who has respect for the Lord, God will teach him the way He has CHOSEN for him. Things will always go WELL for him… The Lord (CONFIDES IN) and shares HIS PLANS with those who have respect for Him. He MAKES KNOWN to them His (promises) and covenant.”
Wadid thank for sharing the honest thoughts. What you said is totally logical, we all had those thoughts, so it is very normal. Be blessed as God is about to do great things among you.
Habibteh Wadad, You had to grow so quickly, You are a warrior, and a princess a daughter of the king. Yes, sometimes we grow weary and sometimes we doubt and many times we fall short….and that is exactly why we need Jesus …He knows anyway 🙂 Thanks for sharing an honest heart that reflects true real faith…and yep my dear satan does hit hard ,,,but we know his ways anyway!!
Sami is rightous man so devil can not break-out the war with him, it is just mission in life and we are praying for Sami to cross this war by victory…….I hope the health for your dad….
There is a dad in wadad! (i caught this from you! ;)) What a wonderful daughter you are! thanks a lot habibti for sharing this with us…the faith of all of you is really an encouragement and a example for us! United with u in love and prayer. “bisous” 😉
Sami & Jacquo: you have a wonderful daughter: loving, caring and on top of that, she has an amazing faith. Wadad, we miss you all so much and you are always in our prayers and thoughts. May the lord answer all your prayers and grant you peace and strengthening your faith.
Habibti Wadad, Thank you so much for the update and for your thoughts. I am not sure what to say to you as you go through a very difficult journey, except that I am so happy that you chose to walk with Jesus by your side. You and your family are an inspiration in your faith. I have you Jeanette and Samir, and your Mom and your Dad in my prayers.
Lots of love from Lebanon,
Rula
حبيبتي وداد
سوف أشارك معك هذا التأمل الصغير :
“معه أنا في الضيق، أنقذه وأمجده “مزمور15:91
ان الله يستعمل الضيق ليعلم أولاده دروساً ثمينة. إن قصده من الالام تهذيبنا. وعندما يتم عملها الكامل الصالح، ننال تعويضًا مجيداً بواسطتها، فهي في الواقع مقدمة لنا من الله لننال بها بركات وأفراح لا نحصل عليها بغير تلك الوسيلة.
قال أحد المؤمنين: “عندما يمتحنك الله، تكون لديك فرصة ثمينة لأن تختبر صدق مواعيده وتطالبه بكل ما هو ضروري بظرفك الخاص”.
وتوجد طريقتان للتخلص من تجربة ما، إحداها مجرد الاجتهاد للتخلص من التجربة والشكر على ذهابها. اما الأخرى، فهي أن ننظر الى التجربة كرسول من الله يجعلنا نطالب ببركة أعظم مما نلناه قبلاً. فرحب بالتجربة كفرصة لنوال مقدار أوفر من النعمة الالهية. بهذا يكون حتى العدو عاملا مساعداً، والاشياء التي تظهر انها ضدنا، توجد بالفعل آتية بالخير لنا. في مثل هذه الحالة يمكن للمؤمن أن يقول بحق: “يعظم انتصارنا بالذي أحبنا رومية 37:8”
“ونحن نعلم أن كل الاشياء تعمل معأ للخير للذين يحبون الله الذين هم مدعوون حسب قصده رومية 28:8”
حبيبتي وداد ثبتي انظارك فيه وليكن لسان حالك “طرقك يا رب عرفني سبلك علمني. دربني في حقك وعلمني لانك انت اله خلاصي. مزمور 4:25”
Wadad,
Thank you for sharing your heart with us, sweet girl! Of course you have doubts and are struggling. I can’t even imagine how hard this is on all of you! We have no idea why this is happening to your Dad, but we do KNOW that God is good, and your Dad is in the BEST hands! I wanted to share something with you that Jeff shared with me this weekend. I had just read this post when he shared this with me, and God keeps telling me you need to hear it. Jeff shared with me a passage that David wrote in Psalm 144: “Then our sons in their youth will be like well-nurtured plants, and our daughters will be like pillars carved to adorn a palace.” What struck him is the picture of our daughters being like pillars. Pillars are beautiful on the outside, but inside they are incredibly solid and have incredible strength! They not only adorn the palace, but they hold up the palace as well! I thought this was such a beautiful picture, but what struck me about it was the very first word in the passage – THEN. I wanted to know what the Bible says happens TO MAKE our daughters into pillars and our sons into well-nurtured plants. So, I looked back. Does the Bible say that if we are perfect parents our daughters will be like pillars? Nope. Does it say that if our daughters have perfect faith that never doubts then they will be like pillars? No! Does it say that if our lives are perfect and nothing bad ever happens to us, then our daughters will be like pillars? I’m sure you know the answer now….NO! Instead, in verse 11, David cries out to God to “deliver me and rescue me”….THEN….Through God delivering David, his sons would be like well-nurtured plants and his daughters like pillars to adorn the palace. WOW! I keep thinking of how many times you’ve seen God deliver your Dad throughout this whole process – through giving him 4 bone marrow matches when many people wait their whole lives for one – through a sense of humor when he shouldn’t have one – delivered from shaking as he began to praise God over and over – and now, you are even seeing him delivered from baldness! 🙂 We may not understand why this is happening, but I can tell you this: Because you are seeing God rescue and deliver your Dad over and over again, you are being built into a beautiful, solid, strong pillar, Wadad! This is a beautiful thing that God is doing in you. Sometimes it is painful being built and sculpted and molded, but God is creating in you beauty that will impact the world because of what you are witnessing in your life right now. I just wanted you to know that you are a pillar of beauty and strength to all of us, sweet Wadad! Not because of what you are trying to do, but because of how God is showing himself to you! We will continue to pray for the entire Lahoud Family! We love you! Love, Crystal and the Coltharp Crew
Wow, Wadad, how profound and deep are the experiences that you are going through these days and how ironic, I thought as I read your post, that the teacher who taught you Bible lessons in 8th grade is now learning from her pupil a practical lesson of how to trust God amidst an ordeal! Well done, habibti Wadad, well done! What a good role model you are to those around you! You are learning a valuable truth on how to cling to your Savior in the midst of the storm.
Your parents have anchored themselves so well on the Rock of Ages. Though the ground below them was so shaky, they stood firm on the word of God and pulled you and your siblings up, one after the other to experience the same peace they have, by standing on that ROCK!
I can see the Lord smiling down on the Lahouds!! It is a smile of pride because you all have honored His name through this illness.
Yes, as Crystal said in her beautiful comment, you have become a pillar, and indeed, a very beautiful one!
I’m dedicating this song to you, Wadad. Its words bring a lot of comfort and peace to my heart when it is restless. I hope it will do the same to yours.
TRUST HIS HEART with lyrics
Love you sooo much,
Aunty Mouli
Hey Wadad,
I was so happy to read your side of the story. Thank you for sharing your heart and thoughts with us. I love you!!
Hugs,
Joyce
Wadad, and you desrve the name hayate. I honor your thoughts and grow stronger with your strength. I know your dad, my older brother, is in good hands with his loved ones around him.
Wadad, and you desrve the name hayate. I honor your thoughts and grow stronger with your strength. I know your dad, my
brother, is in good hands with his loved ones around him.
We too are with you all and understand the feelings and question. Samar said it well in that
“while in this imperfect world we won’t understand everything but one day He promises us that we will.” Chris, Lisa, Lauren, Gabriel & Michael